The Challenge of Change

It really is psychologically difficult How can I handle this situation I have found myself in? I find myself standing unsure, but having faith in Yahweh, between my old ways of thinking and the new ways that scripture has opened up to me. I understand that even though people are sometimes blind to His full truth or ways, that they are still deeply beautiful. Here we are, beautiful, and blind, but building, hoping, seeking. What can I do to escape this calling? What can I do to even hope for a glimmer of victory? Those mountains are daunting and I find even with the encouragement and potential rewards I often feel like the only thing keeping me standing is God. Why can't I shake this feeling that there is only one direction I can go? Forward calls me to the future. I am, in many ways, deeply humbled by the future challenges that await me. I am also excited and hopeful. In it all, please know, that I don't want to be a rebel means I am standing in His light in the darkness. I also don't want to be a conformist, unless conforming means I am becoming more like Christ through the truth of the Word of God. I definitely feel driven, more so then ever, but also more in need of the help that only God can provide. I trust in him, as surely as he is sovereign I hope in him. May he provide a path for my feet, a hope for my future, and may he continue to hear my prayers.