2017 - On The Lookout

I am looking I consider myself officially looking for some women to date. My hope is to find something that will last but... With that said, I would consider 2017 a success if I at least got to go on some dates, as I just want a chance to be open about this on that level... I feel very relaxed about the concept of the actual process of getting to know someone, and am looking forward to the experience I am taking a casual / work-towards approach, but I do have my eyes open and am seeking cues Would be cool to get pursued a bit, that is clearly invited, but I am committed to learning to ask I see it as starting casual and slow, but also being genuine and probably fun for both of us I have no idea what would come after that..but I'm open to figuring it out The Real Challenges Begin This entire process has been invigorating, challenging, enlightening, angering, and brooding. It has had its ups and downs, but has generally been an upward climb. I do not know what the spiritual forces around me are like, I only know that through it all we have sought to follow God. I have had to keep him at the center as I grew to understand this biblical truth, and now will need him more than ever. I am now, a few months after having the reality that my wife supports me in this, realizing more fully the challenge it will actually be to ever find another women to join our family as mine. At time I have sought to mentally move towards acceptance of my plot with vague hope of a future possibility, at other times I have wanted nothing less then this to be one of the top priorities in our lives. We don't exist in an existential vacuum, and I believe practically God intended finding a second wife to be much more socially natural and therefore easy than it is now. I have determined this is part of the reason it needs to be a goal, because we are working against opposing social forces. If biblical social justice was established and shared, then I can imagine a much more relaxed approach. People thought affirmative action wasn't necessary, I am not going to fall to the idea that me seeking and looking to make this happens is anything less then totally and completely acceptable: this is how I feel on the inside. In Yahweh I trust At least when I struggle, I struggle with him. What a blessing. No matter how hopeless I become, I will always have hope, because he has me. I honestly really do doubt that this could happen folks, no because of God, but because I don't know If I have what it takes as a man to practically accomplish it: with another woman. I feel akward and unsure, especially in the context of being misjudged, marginalized, or otherwise berated for my desires / beliefs. Still, even in all the doubt, I can't doubt that Yahweh can accomplish with certainty, anything he sets out to do. There is rest and ease in understanding that God got me into this, that he has a plan for us, and that whether I find someone by effort, by pure providence, or some collaboration of the two...or in my honest fear not at all, that he is will remain my father in heaven. Seriously though, I could use some encouragement that this is an attainable goal. Send me a message.